Confessions of a Drowned Soul

Posted on by imagine15

‘Man’s ingratitude hurts more than Nature’s turbulence.’
How is it that every time you work really hard, work your ass off to get something, someone always, ALWAYS, comes and steals your thunder ? It’s ironical, don’t you think ? More than often, you are the person who actually deserves it. Call it past accounts, karma, luck or anything for that matter, this is something I’ve begun to believe is inevitable.
It is this that takes people to extremities, either side, backing off completely or working even harder because of a faint hope. The latter predominant. Most often, years later, after you’ve suffered maybe years at the hands of that hope, that you clung onto with both your hands right till it ripped your veins, that you realise what a delusion you were in. And right when you get yourself out of that hell-hole, you drop yourself into another one. Its a vicious cycle of life. But then again, what in life isn’t a vicious cycle ?
I just feel like exploding, not from pressure but just from stress and anger and sadness and disappointment and all you really want to do is talk to someone who could get this back to normal but even though you know there are people out there, you just can’t find the right one who you know will say the right thing and will make you feel normal again.
I keep feeling that it’s a bad dream and that I’d wake up and realise that and everything will be perfect, just as you wanted, but you just get trampled and drowned. Nothing is ever perfect. Happy ever afters don’t exist.
All those things that you built from scratch, picked up with both your hands and infused life into just end up drowning you in themselves, filling and drowning you in their unbound grief, sorrow, unhappiness and ingratitude. I can’t help but wonder, why ?
Is it just me ? Or is this everywhere ? Please do let me know if you do know why. 🙂
‘Sometimes all you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe and have faith that everything will work out for the best.’

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